Its been happening a lot lately. I try not to fight it, I know it is a product of my subconscious. I try to hide it but I know its happening.
Ed Sheeran does not help this feeling at all. He speaks of "being my safety" and "keeping my body warm". I just realised the one truth I have been avoiding like a Keke on a Lagosian street, I want to be in love.
I am not your typical romantic. I have become used to the routine of single life. Matter of fact, I find myself constantly justifying why I am single. But at the end of this year I feel the scales slowly pulling from my eyes and I feel it, I want to be in love.
It is extremely difficult for me to "put myself out there" as others so easily say. I just don't know how. Growing up, the importance of independence in a woman was so strongly ingrained in my system that I believed I and only I could provide everything I needed. But no one ever told me that I would one day want to lean against a man's chest. No one cared to tell me that a man's scent is so intoxicating you spend time craving it.
And now that I grow older I realise I want that.
I am by no means asserting that a woman's achievements amount to nothing without a man. No! But FOR ME, after a busy day of mergers and acquisitions I would like to come home to a strong pair of arms wrapped around me.
So there you go, I am searching. Hopefully I can chronicle my journey into the 20 something dating jungle as often as I can.
Love and Smiles.
